Unemployed

The main difference between the last time I was unemployed and this time is my unemployment check. Just having some money coming in keeps the misery level down. But even if money was not an issue I can't keep living in a zone.

The last time I was unemployed I had been in school and writing. The impulse to write was powered up. I had a daily blog practice, both reading and writing. Working at EA sucked that out of me. In part because of the commute and general exhaustion but also because it never felt like people were interested in what I had to say. I had friends. But I didn't really talk. When I first got laid off I thought I'd write. But the writing muscles are weak and I've been sunk in emotionally.

I don't use Twitter very well. I don't really get it. If you see a Tweet from me it's coming from somewhere like Foursquare, or Facebook. The other day Facebook was down and I checked into Twitter to see if anyone knew why. I saw a Tweet from Blogrolling in which they were announcing the end of the service. When I switched to using Blogger for design I looked for a blogroll gadget but didn't see one. I checked again today and ... there it was. So I moved all the links and let go of a few more. I think I'll add a blog roll to the food blog. I let go of some links that I loved. I need to accept that I am not reading blogs. I'd like to think I might again but until then ...

Jane was visiting for a few days. It was nice to have someone around. Mom will be here in a few weeks.

I still feel relatively voiceless but I am trying to emerge.