That last post was such a vent. I wanted it in a public space. But not too public. And I knew not too many people read this blog because I don’t write here that often. I only intended it to be the Christmas in NC blog.

But when I come here and see that last post … oh. I dunno.

The person I was venting about is someone I will always love. And my heart is broken in too many ways. So I get mad. And I lose my mind. And then time passes. And I only remember that I love him. I just have to post something. So that I don’t come here and get all pissed off all over again.