Schedule

 Having a schedule is really important for me. During the first year of Covid I established one, even though most of it was reading time. My schedule now organizes around stomach aches, medication and sleep. And reading, of course. 

I don't take that many meds but I got in the habit of taking one really early and then going back to sleep. The next one gives me a stomach ache (if I don't have one already) so I often either go back to sleep or just close my eyes until it settles down. It all takes a lot of time. 

Then it's important to eat (stomach ache and blood sugar). I usually do the TikTok, which means I'm also on TikTok watching videos. Check in on other social media. Watch a little news. And ... the morning is over. 

I used to get a shower in the morning but it's getting later and later. Some mornings get caught up in other things and the whole day shifts. 

I think it has an impact on my writing. Like yesterday when all I did was make a list of things. I'm just determined write something every day. 

I resent how much I sleep. Two doctors said it might be because of the concussion and would get better. The headaches are (mostly) gone but the sleeping is ridiculous. I'm trying to figure out what I need to accept. Maybe this is just age and recovery. It makes no sense to try and force myself to wake up. It makes less sense to struggle to keep to an arbitrary schedule and feel bad about it when I fail.